BabY BeLLa

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Thu, 01 Feb 2007 17:25:10 GMT

I'll be the loser and write in my lj. I want to more often these days because i feel like i dk i'm not recording my life the right way. today i had no classes so im just chilling out, well actually i'm doing all this ridiculous hw. i guess that makes me even more of a loser. sometimes i miss home a lot...sometimes i'm anxious to be here. i wish i coudl take all my friends and put them in the same college. sometimes i think its cruel that u spend ur whole life finding the people u love spending time with, and when u get old enough to drive to them old enough to party with them and seethem whenever u want....college comes around and uproots u and puts distances between u guys. and im a person thats pretty bad at calling cause i dont have a lot of free time, and when i do i hate spending it on the phone. i miss my friends tho...too much, and i miss the ease and comfort of knowing everyone i love is close by.

Fri, 06 Oct 2006 01:35:54 GMT

I wonder what would happen if i started writing in this again. do people still read/ write in this thing?

collette may come to visit soon! yay
caroline maybe too.

come visit me people, and share the love.

Sun, 23 Apr 2006 17:52:04 GMT

I miss my best friends. I feel like it's been too long.

as soon as i get home, we need to spend a marathon time with each other.

Does anyone even read this anymore?

well if you do, marathon talkage time. the rest of this month is busy and sucks, but i can't wait to get home to my bestest!

Sun, 11 Dec 2005 17:11:26 GMT

Good Morning GCA, today is Friday, May 28 and my very last day saying this to all of you. Those words are hard for me to say now, for a different reason they were hard to say at the beginning of the year. I was so nervous when I first started doing announcements. I remember Mrs. Kaen handing me a piece of paper, saying here’s the pledge of allegiance. I remember turning to her and going “no, it’s ok I know the pledge of allegiance” and she was like take it anyway. Sure enough, when I got to the p.a. I completely blanked out, I was stuttering over words like ‘under’. To this day I say the date and letter day once through before I do it over the loud speaker.
Student Council has taught me a lot of things besides just being able to speak the loudspeaker. Our goal, in the beginning, was to increase school spirit, and I think we achieved that goal, but we didn’t do it alone. It was with the help of all of the members of Student Council who willingly supported every idea we came up with and developed a lot of great ideas themselves. So I would like to take this opportunity to thank all of them for being a pleasure to sit with every Friday afternoon. I would also like to take this opportunity to thank Mrs. Kaen and Sr. Carol for being patient with me when I was learning to use the p.a. system, and for not killing me every quote competition when it almost broke( we weren’t kidding when we said only buzz once), and for having the faith in us to get everything done- eventually. I would also like to thank Mrs. Winkler for allowing Caroline and I to leave at 9:32 every class so we could be in time for announcements. And thank you to Mr. Mondshein for pumping me up before the announcements every morning, by telling me how I was getting to be an announcing professional.
There are three other very important people I have to mention. Deidre, Caroline and Gina I was amazed from the start on how brilliantly we worked together besides our obviously different personalities. I mean who else could spend two weeks planning for Harry Potter, and then pull off a monopoly theme in three days. Dee, you were awesome to work with. I love ya because even if we made mistakes, you would be like “o, no, it’s ok it gives us character.” Carrie, thank you for coming with me to say announcements when I was scared. You are simply amazing. Somehow, you can produce anything, student council minutes, permission slips, mash potatoes…in 2 minutes. Gina, you were definitely the much needed comic relief added to the mix. Whenever we got overly excited about something we couldn’t get done, Gina would break out “it’s not that serious”, and suddenly everything was ok. It’s no doubt, separately, you guys are all amazing, but together is when we had the most fun. I have memories of counting pennies, and planning meetings . Who forgot to tell Dee to wear pink? But the memory that always sticks out the most is planning freshman orientation. After we amazed Gina with the detail that we had actually paid for boxes in office max, she took us on a trek to the models parking lot in Yonkers to get some free boxes to make the monopoly houses out of. It would have been an awesome time except we neglected the fact that it was a night in the summer when people were actually there, and I dressed in my bright pink overalls and pigtails really was not dressed for the occasion. My other favorite memories revolve around our little lunches with the visitors. Almost every other day we’d all sit together, telling new comers how much we loved our school ,and dee always asking her famous question “ so, how do you guys feel about there not being boys here?” Two weeks ago, we were sitting in a restaurant, and two girls came up to us and asked us if we went to good counel, because they had come to visit and remembered eating lunch with us. The four of us were so excited we ran to their table. But as I was leaving the restaurant I got really sad, because I realized, that if they’re coming in, that means we’re leaving. I don’t know where the time has gone, but I do know the times I was with you three was well spent. I want to thank you guys for making this year amazing.
For the next vice president, I leave you with some advice. Speak clearly and slowly. Don’t be nervous, and always be in uniform when you walk into the machine room. And whatever you do, have fun doing it, because these are the best times of your high school career. Good luck.

Wed, 26 Oct 2005 22:16:20 GMT

It's time for a change.

Tue, 18 Oct 2005 22:28:39 GMT

1: First grade teacher's name: Mrs. Sharkey <33

2. Last word you said: keys

3: Last song you sang: sk8er boi! lolz

4: Last person you hugged: aleesh

5: Last thing you laughed at? fuzzy wuzzy

6: Last time you said I don't remember: today lolz

7: Last time you cried? sunday

::PRESENT::

9: What color socks are you wearing: im not...flops even tho its cold

10: What's under your bed: everything...college dorm girl lolz

11: What time did you wake up today: 8 cuz my mom dialed my # instead of the paUlz

12: Current taste: none dinner wassssss gross as usual

13: Current hair: messy bun

15: Current annoyance: physc test

16: Current longing: nyc nov 12 =)

17: Current desktop background: the world...i kno its weird

18: Current worry: getting my bio lab test back

19: Current hate: hahaha i shudnt get started

20: Current favorite article of clothing: sweatpants- always lolz

21: Favorite physical feature of the opposite sex: eyes , height, and bright white smiles make me melt

22: Last CD that you listened to: my mix

23: Favorite place to be: its not where u are but who ur with...tripod <3

24: Least favorite place: cell bio lab

25: Time you wake up in the morning?: mwf 730, tth- 1030 ss- umm...lolz

26: If you could play an instrument, what would it be: i play piano

27: Favorite color: hot pink and baby pink

28: Do you believe in an afterlife: yup

29: How tall are you: 5'3 1/4

30: Current favorite word/saying: harry potter lolz yes i say it a lot

31: Favorite book: bloomability

32: Favorite season: winter cuz of snow, summer cuz no school

33: One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: grandparents

::FUTURE::

35: Where do you want to go for college? Siena *08

36: What is your career going to be like: pediatrics

37: How many kids do you want: just 2
::HAVE YOU EVER...::

39: Said "I love you": yes

40: Gotten in a fight with your dog/cat/bird/fish: ummm no

41: Been to New York: i Live here

42: Been to Florida: yes twice

43: Been to California: no
44: Been to Hawaii: i want to
45: Been to Mexico: nope

46: Been to China: no

48: Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: all tha time

52: Do you have a crush on someone: yea emerson spartz

53: What book are you reading now? cell bio textbook lolz

54: Worst feeling in the world: feeling immature/ jealous

55: What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning: i hate class

56: How many rings before you answer: well a lot cuz i can never find my phone

59: Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: no

64: Do you do drugs: def not

65: Do you drink: uhhh

67: What kind of Shampoo and Conditioner do you use? bruNette

68: What are you most scared of: squirrels

69: What clothes do you sleep in? pjz---> betty boop, snoopy and tinkerbell <3

70: Who is the last person that called you: chris, duh

71:Where do you want to get married: we'll see

72: If you could change anything about yourself what would that be: nottttthing

73. Who do you hate: too manypeople to list

74: Been In Love: someone needs to define in love for me

75: Are you timely or always late: depends

76: Do you have a job: nope

77: Do you like being around people? depends who they are

78: Best feeling in the world: being with your best friends

79: Are you for world peace: yup

80: Are you a health freak: yea

81: Do you have a "Type" of person you always go after: guidos- but none of my bfs have been guidos, so i dk lolz

82: Do you want someone you don't have?: no

83: Are you lonely right now: yes my roomies @ work, and kins is studying

84: Ever afraid you'll never get married: no i think i will, and if i dont....o well

85: Do you want to get married: yea after med school tho

86: Do you want kids? 2

::IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU...::

87: Cried: no

88: Bought Something: noooo surprising

89: Gotten Sick: yes wtf lolz

90: Sang: yepppy deppy

91: Said I Love you: yes

92: Wanted To Tell Someone You Liked them: umm no

93: Met Someone: of course

94: Moved On: lolz in the past 48 hours? wut would i have moved on from?

95: Talked To Someone: aL diddy duMkiNS <3

96: Had A Serious Talk: yes we seriously made fun of people lolz

97: Missed Someone: all tha time

98: Hugged Someone: yeS

99: Yelled at Someone: of course

100.Is there Someone You Can't Be with out: the peoples i love

=)

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 05:54:55 GMT

Sitting in al's car with collette...lolz talking about, well i prolly shudnt say what we were talking about lolz. making fun of everyone possible...reliving the good old days lolz when me and al "went out" hahahahaha back to the future of sex blankets LOLZ...educating al about why its good to marry a virgin Lolz...
he already won the effin bet lolz...
talking about girlie nose jobs on guys, "i bet he wears makeup"
"he really does go to wcc" "i had my hands in the soap, i washed it 15 times, the smell didnt wanna come off" uhoh now al has collettes number

"who were u on the phone with" "my friends" "tell them to come" "nah u wudnt want them to, they're four girls" "hahaha wut are u worried about? that im gonna be like this is my al back off bitches, cuz ur right" "exactly" "ill be a physical cockblock, watch lolz"

do the stephi dance when ur cold, and dont turn the light on- even the one al just discovered.

i learned how to pop the hood tho, even if i was trying to pop the trunk.

&)$*&#)*YR#*& RY#R*&....stephi, im sorry LOLZ

I LOVE MY LETTA (151) lolz and my aL <3

Wed, 12 Oct 2005 16:36:51 GMT

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Sat, 08 Oct 2005 15:31:34 GMT

A. McKenna's message last night made my life lolz, especially her choice of words, wut wud OConnell call that? o right diction

B. the concert was awesome, fall out boy is so hot

C. its family weekened today

<333

back in time

Wed, 28 Sep 2005 22:29:28 GMT

It was approaching the end of April, and getting sort of late
Six girls were going crazy, screaming “Who is going to be my prom date?”
So they all gathered at the table, and began to form a plan
“We’re going to the mall to find dates this week; this situation is getting out of hand!”
They gathered all of their makeup, and took time to do their hair
“We won’t just make the boys look,” Collette screamed, “we’ll make them stare”
They all piled into Collette and Deirdre’s vehicles, and went to the mall not very far
So now let’s take the time to review, exactly who was in these two cars:

The first was myself, Stephanie, the princess of the group
Always dressed in something to get attention, bright pink or large hoops
I’m rather quite childish, and always much too loud
I’m 100% Italian, and Caroline claims I’m insanely proud
I’m rather afraid of squirrels, and they’re not afraid of me
They like to scare me all the time, I wish they would just let me be
I leave everything to the last minute and I’m rather lazy
And don’t make excuses for my behavior, No I’m really just that crazy

Collette is the mom of the group, always dressed in black blue or red
And you can bet by 10 o’clock she is sleeping in her bed
She can solve any problem embedded in our Calc book
And she’s so patient, when I ask her questions; she doesn’t give me that “Are you stupid?”
look (usually)
Collette is very temperate, and I’ve never seen her lie
But if we do A.P U.S, it’s most likely she will cry
Collette is very talented, especially when it comes to art
But the best thing about Collette, is her big wonderful heart

Dee is the competitor at our table
she has a lot of weird channels on her cable
she’s really good at volleyball
and when she wears her fuchsia shoes she’s really tall
she likes to challenge herself everyday
she says pepper in a really wrong way
when you see dee in school, that’s when the fun begins
well at least on those days she feels like coming in

MaryBeth, the sweet achiever, the best listener I know
She picks you up when you are feeling very low
Marybeth is very smart, she has a lot of knowledge
It’s a possibility we might be going to the same college
Marybeth is good at predicting things, she usually has a hunch
And usually every 6th period she makes fun of her lunch
She works at a restaurant and volunteers for an ambulance core
And even though she does so much, she’s always trying to do more

Caroline is the optimist, always a smile on her face
She’s got the type of laugh that time will never erase
She’s going to West point, and she can do a million pushups
She never lets you down, and can fix any kind of screw up
Miss Caroline is always singing, its one of her many passions
As well as cooking, and creating new trends and fashions
Through every crisis, she always remains calm
That’s why I know to her dozen children, she’ll be the best mom

Mckenna is the wit, always has something funny to say
And with her, She has a snapple every day
She buys fun clothes like bright red pants
And every Sunday does an alias dance
She does weird things like race to bio- period 8/9
Her distracting behavior makes the rest of us shine
Don’t get me wrong, being respectful is part of her credentials
Just watch out cause lil’ Mckenna throws pencils!

So as these six girls proceeded through the mall,
They looked around for their man of their dreams, waiting for his call
Caroline was first to find a date, as she gave a little shout,
Imagine finding the boy of your dreams selling cookies for boy scouts!
The second lucky one was McKenna, no other girl stood a chance
For she captured her Abercrombie and Fitch model doing her alias party dance
The third to have a date was Mary, as she answered her cell phone to take a call
It was Anthony! She’d forgotten she already asked him! She didn’t need too look for a
prom date after all.
For some reason this triggered something in Dee’s mind, this put her search to the end
She took out her own phone, and dialed Tony, “wow,” she smiled, “I’ll just ask my
boyfriend”
At this point many had found a date, Collette was feeling kind of blue,
Until she located her prince charming carrying several bags from J. crew
Steph was lonely, she was the only one who hadn’t found a date, as she looked sadly at the floor
Until her face lit up as she witnessed there was the love of her life waiting for her in the Armani store

So that’s the story how a table of 6 met their destiny and fulfilled their fate,
No actually it’s just the simple story of how
A princess, a competitor, an optimist, a mom, a wit, and an achiever
Found their prom dates

Mon, 19 Sep 2005 23:10:09 GMT

I find this quite amusing.

I wonder when people will realize that the "scene" has become homogeneous. It's full of 14 year old girls with uneven bangs, black and white striped shirts, and tattered low-top black Chuck Taylors, who swoon over homosexual kissing and pathetic whiny lyrics and overuse the symbols.

Their favorite quote is, invariably, "The truth is you could slit my throat and with my one last gasping breath I'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt" because it like, so totally describes their relationship with that one HAWT sophomore who totally ripped their hearts out when they were like, SO in love with him.

Their favorite type of music is, of course, "emo, screamo, and hardcore", three terms which, in their minds, invariably include the bands Taking Back Sunday, Thrice, and Hawthorne Heights.

Their AIM screennames often include x's, the words "electrikk", "disaster", or some play on their favorite song from their favorite band, you know, the one they saw on MTV like a couple times, but shouldn't be on MTV because they're like, way too emo for that.

They take hundreds of black and white pictures with way too much contrast of themselves looking plaintively down at the ground, pointing a gun made of their fingers at their heads, or kissing the camera while displaying their expert application of lip gloss around their labret piercing and the thick dark eyeliner that circles their eyes.

They embrace the "dork" that is inside their polished, fashionable exteriors by writing in their LiveJournals or Xangas about how they and their friends had an 'N Sync sing-a-long at one of their sleepovers because, remember, 'N Sync is soooo not popular anymore and they like, sooo wouldn't follow any of the fads of today, so they embrace the fads of yesterday.

They adore "retro fashion", meaning anything from the 80's, because they totally used to wear neon colors and big beaded bracelets, even though they were born in, at the earliest, 1985 and remember jack shit about the fashion and culture of the 80's.

It's full of "emo boys" who often are difficult to differentiate from "emo girls", who have meaningless tattoos even though they're 15, smoke a lot of cigarettes, drink a lot of hard liquor, and are in some shitty band that plays a couple of gigs in someone's basement because they're "too cool to go mainstream" when really, they just suck.

They weigh roughly 90 pounds, wear girls' jeans that hug their asses in just the right places, belts buckled somewhere around the side of their right leg, tight striped 80's style polo shirts or band t-shirts, and skater shoes, even though they don't skate because that's soooo lame.

They write awful poetry about the dark abyss of their souls and how the gun is pointed at their heads, the trigger poised to blast away the bloody memories of a failed romance. They cried when Blink-182 broke up, and they have a secret obsession with Avril Lavigne because, like, she really IS kinda hot even though her music totally sucks.

They spend more time at the mirror than their female counterparts do, making sure that the long black shock of hair at the front of their heads lies covering one eye just so, that their lip piercing is perfectly placed so that it looks hot when they kiss other boys, that their pants are the right degree of tightness so as not to exude gayness.

Emo boys and girls often use the suffix "Xcore" to describe themselves, using a number of adjectives or nouns to accomplish this task. This is a play off hardcore music, or "hXc". Some of these descriptive words include "fashionXcore", "retroXcore", or even "yournamehereXcore."

This way of speaking is retarded or nonsensical to everyone else except those "in the scene", but it totally doesn't matter because they're too nonconformistXcore for anyone to truly understand their "scene".

They couldn't name a Sunny Day Real Estate or Rites of Spring song if it came up and bit them on their Gap Jeans-clad asses, and they claim to like the Smiths because Jesse Lacey of Brand New said they were cool.

Sure, they listen to some new "emoXcore" bands, but they're all pretty much the same five bands:
1. Taking Back Sunday
2. Senses Fail
3. Good Charlotte
4. Hawthorne Heights
5. Story of the Year
To these promising young firecrackers, music takes a backseat to fashion in their scene of choice.

Emo girls just want to kiss emo boys, emo boys just want to kiss other emo boys, and they all want to wear tight pants and take lots of pictures of themselves. End of story. Because honestly? It's electrikk!

Sun, 28 Aug 2005 06:30:08 GMT

i honestly dont know how im gonna deal without my best friends. summer gets me so used to being up their butts sigh.

Guidettes can play rough too.

Wed, 24 Aug 2005 06:29:37 GMT

Omg. First journal entry in a while. but omg tonight, tonight is journal worthy.

It just so happens when me and becca make plans nothing ever works out. so me and becca were like fuck everyone, we'll just chyll with each other. and the opposite happened. we had the best night didnt we bOo <3 lolz so first we went to dunwoodies [[of course]] lolz to say gbye to franKie before college...such a sweetie as always...((aww thanks for the ice)) capPucino + choColate matches my outfit, right becca? where the hell is everyone? the question is can becca parallel park the car?? holy shyt wut is that beeping noise...o well it tells me when im getting too close LOLZ becca and her fucking nORTH FACE LUNCHBOX...o just give me the damn thing, ill put it in my big purse LOLZ...then we headed to tha party in hawthorne....wut is reALLLY good lolz, 2 much drinking and neither of us wanted to be drunk, trust me we were all ready on a LiFe high lolz...then becca LIES TO ME. wuts the rule becca. if u have to lie i DONT WANNA B THERE. "steph can u get me to the bloomingdales parking lot" "why" "mad people r gonna b there" "ok" " becca...i have a question...wut the fuck kinda people hang out in bloomingdales parking lot?" ....YEA MAD PEOPLE...thanks a fuCking lot u BioTch liAr LOLZ...the best part was holding hands while walking thru the parking lot....how did u find me? ummmmmm u told us lolz. can u get his number so i can go? lolz. steph stop being a brat. beccas theres a fucking bat we're leaving. bats like the air not the ground. "EXCUSE ME i am becca and i kNOW how to get my own guys i dont NEED ur help btCh" lolz we all know who thats going out to right becca? everyone wants becca cuz shes the shyt...<3 lolz... im cold, can we leave now. wanna ride. cT nough said, me and becca will laugh about that till the day we die lolz.

WE RACED DOWN CENTRAL AND WON IN BECCAS PIMPED OUT MINI_VAN <3

becca: Excuse me but guidettes can play rough too.

"i only date italians" "thats cool keeping it clean" SMACK. becca and steph piss their pants. STOP TRYING TO TOP ME, ULL NEVER BE ME. and why are u trying to top MY DUMB ASS MISTAKES. lolz. wut exactly r u wearing. put the jellloooooooo away. Becca: yeea new rocks bad...yEah the &^*& and... Me: BECCA DONT SAY IT Becca: O SHYT lolz......excuse me can u take a picture of us? we look sexy we dont wanna miss this opportunity LOLZ....hot new car, blasting songs, dancing...tha RIGHT WAY....sorry im itaLian and prouD...wut firSt generatiOn oh oK lolZ <3 imsorry but can u stop staring...take a picture it will last LONGER lolz...becca: is it just me or cud he not take his eyes off of u me: is it just me or did he want to have sex with u LOLZ....

cappucinos, gelatoes, and peLLigriNo water at the itaLian cafe....guLia came on ((excuse me i brought that shyt to america))....funnnnnyneSs mikEy mike is just a sweetheart <333

thennnnnnnnnnnnnnn...the ride back was the best talking about the entire night which of course was hilarious and completely unplanned. becca promised no more lying about places we were going LOLZ screaming luCas prata songs....becca: steph ur cute when ur mad..me: bECCCCCCCCCCA PLEASEEEEE can we run away lolz..steph get the pink bat and beat the shyt out of him our own valentines day massacre LOLZ...becca: my favorite lines were the ct and the part about dancing LOLZ steph next year we're going to seaside, and beatstock and OMG this is the nite to top all yonkers nites...mostly cuz we werent in yonkerz LOLZ....

Me: i can handle white plains/thornwood/hawthorne if u can handle bronx/mtvernon/yonkers
Becca: you got the north i got the south....u get westchester LOLZ

im done with this journal entry. hope u enjoyed it becca. lets just shake hands and call it a nite. o fuck italians dont do that....italians give kiSses...baci baci then bella

Tue, 23 Aug 2005 06:19:44 GMT

I need my mcunci and letta

Sun, 14 Aug 2005 15:17:33 GMT

at the viLLa...see aLL yo AssEs in a Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeekkkk <3

Sun, 14 Aug 2005 05:07:40 GMT

I can't believe everything I've learned from my 18 years of living can be summed up in a felicity quote... well maybe not everything but an important thing about relationships...and not just ex-bfs, ex-friends and ex- people in ur life except subst. in love with..with like in a friendship or something

"maybe getting over someone you're in love with isnt impossible. unless, maybe you dont actually get over it. maybe you just learn to live with it."
-felicity

everyone always gets caught up in trying to get over it. and i think the only hope of survival is to live with it and slowly but surely your heart will accept it. getting over it is like asking your heart to pretend something didnt happen, where as learning to live with it is shoving it in a corner somewhere that u pray ull never be asked to look at again

neways i leave for vaca tomorrow....see ya*ll on sunday....when my baby will be home plus AntoneLLa will be here, and all the couSins will be uNited since like 8 yEars ago <333

Thu, 11 Aug 2005 15:04:00 GMT

Mckenna: but i hope if we somehow wind up alone when we're old, we can all get an apartment together and live together
Me: like the Golden Girls! who gets to be who? whos the slut?
McKenna: i'll be the slut
Collette: actually i think Stephanie is gonna be the slut because she doesnt have sex now and when she finally does shes gonna go crazy
McKenna: ok ill be the old lady, cause Im gonna be short like her and Collette you can be the normal one
Collette: Who
Me: Dorothy
Collette: Is that Bea Arthur? i dont know why but i kno her real name
Me: Yea her...did you kno Estelle Getty's really the oldest one, the one that plays the ladies mother. i dont know why i kno her real name either

(just a segment of our 4 hour convo lolz i love us)

Thu, 11 Aug 2005 05:40:50 GMT

I have a headache from bumping my head.
the night was worth it though.

i think you could twirl around and around and go on a billion roller coasters and jump out of planes then dance to a million of your favorite songs, and you still wont reach the same high as when your with your best friends having a good conversation.

People bring out different aspects of people. aNd i hope i bring out the best...cause i want to be someone memorable. i want to be someone people look back on and smile, and hopefully look forward to and smile.

<3 always,
stepHie

Sun, 07 Aug 2005 20:51:52 GMT

lolz i forgot to say that roAmin around aimlessly in white plains with emJ and jimMy was quite the fun lolz even if emJ cudnt think of anythig to satisfy jIMMys taste

iLl nEver forgEt wiNky <333 HAHHAHAHA
emJ: i cant find his nipples lolz stop touching my stomach, nICe waLLLet, aww u wanna hold my hand....i want starbuckS...we're spolied...

he does have a nextel right? lolzzzzz funtimEs <3

Wed, 03 Aug 2005 04:53:28 GMT

Honestly, i was thinking about relationships tonight. and not just boyfriend girlfriend relationships, like PEOPLE relationships like you and your best friend, and your teacher or whoever. Old relationships that ended a way you didnt want them to, i.e. a fight, an incident, ignoring....and is not repaired within 6 months is officially emotionally draining. even if you fix it after the 6 months, honestly its too late. to much emotion is drained. and you always forget if ur supposed to be mad at the person or forgive them for the half-ass sorry they pulled together, or the way it was just suddenly settled my the mystery of "time-healing". honestly if it just takes time to heal a broke relationship then your relationship was stupid or the fight was. prolly the first. i dont know wut made me think of this. but i think i really have issues when it comes to getting over things. and i dont mean forgiving.. its just the forgetting part. and its not my brain that has the issues, tho i usually am remembering wut went wrong, but its just like a feeling in my heart. and it feels like a tug, like someones holding it and pulling it down. and sometimes i feel so high and happy and sometimes i feel like i have no control. and thats the worst. the non-control part. cus i dont think theres anything i can do for it.

Tue, 02 Aug 2005 05:18:43 GMT

so i straightened mcuncis hair tonight, she looked hot like wildfire (not the horse), but you kno what i dont wanna talk about it....cookies and but i dont wanna talk about it apple juice and champagne, and daily checkups- im going to lie to you anyway- special appearance by LO, that is im blocking you...i dk sam was there? wtf just give her a birthday post-it and lock your computer and please dont go down anyones pants but honestly i dont wanna talk about it...

and you would only get that if u were mckennnnnnnnnnna

Fri, 29 Jul 2005 05:30:09 GMT

If we meant everything we said, we'd be silent.

lets go back, back to the beginning

Tue, 26 Jul 2005 03:22:07 GMT

Ok so Laguna Beach has impacted my life. I didn't even see the new one. Watching the old ones has had more of an impact on my life. Imagine if they taped my senior year. Wow. I kno i would think i did a lot of stupid things, i kno there would be a ton of regret. and i keep saying to myself omg senior year, everything is so different now, even tho people swore it would stay the same and i guess its what you expect, people to grow....and things to change. but its just that everything is SO different. got me thinking. and they're all like so sad their leaving, and that was me last year, sad. but im not sad anymore, im not even close to sad, hell i kinda feel dumb for being sad. and not bc im like o senior year sucked it didnt, it was awesome. it was just sorta, i dk dumb in the long run, friend-wise, true friend wise. then i heard this quote from laguna and it was like " you realize the point is not to have as many friends as you can, its to have as many real friends as you can" and i feel like thats the point of life, its not how many people u kno its who gives a damn about u. and i was thinking like ok i was in the hospital. its something your friends should know right, well if u tell them, or if someone tells them. whatever the point of the matter some people called, like people i havent talked to in forevz, like julen. and shes like u kno i shudnt call u cuz u never call me but i was worried because i love u and i was like wow. true friends doesnt always have to mean up the assage, bc people go thru phases where they spend a lot of their time with one person, and it fades away cuz thats all it is- a phase. but its about long lasting, rebuilding, friends forever type deal, the ones u actually see at ur wedding, cuz no matter where u go u can always pick up where u left off, cuz u have something other than a guy group u like in common, or the fact that u both like to drink or something. they're actually a part of u. i dk maybe i shud stop overanalyzing laguna beach and go to bed
<3 gnite

Thu, 14 Jul 2005 02:32:09 GMT

Ok what is up with me? I am miss no drama. this sucks. i get chances to ruin people lives, to fuck them over, to start trouble- even cases where it wudnt be tracked down to me, and yet i dont. i find no fun in any people that i think are stupid. i used to think they were funny. sigh. where has dramatic fun gone? i never realized you could have fun without drama. i feel like im mature. mature people suck

<3

Fri, 08 Jul 2005 05:11:43 GMT

That's right bitches...he's all mine

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